Love Not So Strong

I am emotionally drained after the weekend. It is Monday morning and I could easily crawl back into bed. Yesterday I must have shed more tears than what seem humanly possible. It just felt like I could no longer move forward in this relationship.

Things have been tough lately. It has been a busy time for my partner, but it was too many weeks without much romance or affection or just understanding and it reached a point where I really did feel like there would be no return. The weekend was promised to be one of romance and making things good again. Instead I almost walked out that door for good.

But I didn't. And hopefully it was the right decision. Only time will tell. Since the tears finally ceased last night, he has been more attentive and even this morning he held me longer than usual before heading to work. Even fed the cats which is something he never does before work. And half an hour after he left, he sent me a message on my phone reminding me to shut the bedroom windows and wishing me a good day and that he loves me. A simple gesture but one that goes a long way after so long without feeling particuarly loved.

It will be a long process getting us back on track completely but hopefully he has finally seen what needs to be done and will begin getting it there again. The worst thing is there are only 3 days together... 2 actually, before he goes away for 4 days interstate for his band. It leaves very little time to strengthen the bond enough to make me feel secure during that weekend apart.